我会写，但我不会说。我不知道这是为什么。可能我的思绪太快、或者太慢、我在不断的推进思路、一直延续，导致于我无法停下来总结。我可以继续、可以感受，但我不会总结。我会描述、会推测，但我似乎没有直觉。似乎我的直觉让我不能相信。我的直觉告诉我的所有事情，我都以为是错的、至少我一直是被这么告知的。

一方面，我经常被自己的情绪击倒。我的情绪总是很快、很诚实，来的时候可以很强烈的让我无法关注任何外界的事物、离开的时候也会带走所有的力气，有点类似偏头痛。我看Daiga每次偏头风，好像跟我对情绪的反应差不多。我一直以为他的偏头风是psychological，不是physical，但他似乎不赞同。是气候，他说。

在人多的时候和人互动的时候，我经常会感到感官过载。我不知道是为什么，可能是因为新环境，一下子冲击太大。当时各方面的变化都很大，我好像暂时失去了reference，有点浑浑噩噩的。不确定每天自己在做什么、也不知道应该如何表达、如何和人沟通。这件事影响我到现在，好像我之前也很少说话，那之后也很少说话，如果不是那段时间，我不知道我的话原来一直这么少。但其实那是因为，我真的不会说。

ChatGPT Translation:

I can write, but I can’t speak.

I don’t know why that is.

Maybe my thoughts move too fast—or too slowly.

I’m constantly pushing my thoughts forward, one after another, without pause—so I never stop to summarize.

I can keep going, I can feel things, but I can’t condense.

I can describe, I can speculate—but it seems like I don’t have intuition.

Or rather, my intuition is something I can’t trust.

Everything my intuition ever told me, I assumed was wrong.

At least, that’s what I was always told.

On one hand, I’m often knocked over by my own emotions.

They come fast, honestly, and when they hit, they’re so intense that I can’t focus on anything else.

When they leave, they take all my strength with them.

It’s a bit like a migraine.

When I see Daiga with one of his migraines, it feels a lot like my emotional reactions.

I always thought his migraines were psychological, not physical—

But he doesn’t agree.

“It’s the climate,” he says.

When I’m around people, especially in crowds, I often feel sensory overload.

I don’t know why—maybe it’s because of new environments, or just too much stimulation all at once.

At the time, so many things were changing at once, I felt like I lost all my reference points.

I was drifting.

I wasn’t sure what I was doing each day.

I didn’t know how to express myself, or how to communicate with people.

That experience has affected me to this day.

I think I didn’t used to talk much before, and I’ve talked even less since.

If it weren’t for that period, I might never have realized how little I speak.

But the truth is—I just don’t know how to speak.