Morrison
Morrison tower was across from this really good pizza place called Adriatico's. We’d always pass by around lunch time, and get lured in by all the pizza smell. There were a few different choices in terms of food on campus, none of them I liked. I’d always go to Yau’s, Joy’s Village or Moy’s for lunch. Sometimes I got gyros. I like gyros. Other times I go to Buckeye Donuts. But not to get donuts, but to get egg ham and cheese croissant sandwiches. I was alone a lot. I was not used to being alone that much.
I felt I was in a space I didn’t belong to. I was an outsider, an observer. I would engage, but I wouldn't be sure how to form deeper connections. I wasn’t sure how to get to know people without being intrusive. I wasn’t sure how to share. I still don’t know how to share. So much so that I have to write a blog about me, hi, it’s me, Sunny. There was always this sense of me being part of a movie that I was not a participant of, but an audience of. I was loomed with that sense of surrealness the whole time I was there. Nothing would make sense to me after spending a break at home in China, then nothing would make sense from home to me after being in Ohio for a while. I could feel a new identity of me forming, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I’m still not sure what it is.
The year I spent in Morrison, I made friends with people who I still talk to, Wooseung who’s now working in Kuwait on some cool construction project, Sean who I almost saw in China, but didn’t get to anyway. Jisoo, whom I used to be very close to, I heard she has a cat, a dog and a boyfriend that looks like Jesus (her own words) now. So-young who lived in Shanghai the same time as I did in 2016 - 2019, who was still married back then, who continued to stay in Shanghai after the divorce. Katrina, Anna, Amanda, Ian, etc, I saw some of them not too long ago.
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Morrison Tower 对面有一家很好吃的披萨店，叫 Adriatico’s。我们中午总会路过那里，然后被披萨的香味勾进去。学校附近的吃饭选择有一些，但我一个都不喜欢。我午饭经常去 Yau’s、Joy’s Village 或 Moy’s。有时候我会去买 gyros。我喜欢 gyros。有时候我会去 Buckeye Donuts。但不是去买甜甜圈，而是去买火腿蛋芝士可颂。我一个人待着的时间很多。我不太习惯一个人待这么久。
我感觉自己身处在一个我不属于的空间。我是个局外人，一个观察者。我会参与进去，但我不知道该怎么建立更深的连接。我不知道怎么去了解别人又不显得冒犯。我不知道怎么分享。我到现在也不知道怎么分享。以至于我得写一篇博客来讲讲我自己。嗨，是我，Sunny。我总觉得自己像是在一部电影里，但我不是电影的参与者，只是一个观众。我在那里的整个时间都笼罩在一种超现实的感觉里。从中国回去之后，一切都让我不理解；但在俄亥俄待久了，再回中国的时候，那边的一切也变得难以理解。我能感觉到一个新的“我”正在形成，但我不知道它到底是什么。我现在也还不知道它是什么。
我在 Morrison 那一年认识了一些朋友，现在还保持联系。Wooseung 现在在科威特参与一个很酷的建筑项目，Sean，我差点在中国见到他，但最后没见上。Jisoo，我们以前关系很亲密，我听说她现在养了一只猫、一只狗，还有一个看起来像耶稣的男朋友（她自己说的）。So-young，在 2016 到 2019 年我们都住在上海，那时候她还没离婚，后来离了婚之后她还是留在上海。Katrina、Anna、Amanda、Ian 等等，我最近还见到过其中几个人。