After Tahoe, came college

After Tahoe, came college. I was still very financially dependent on my parents, despite several attempts to work at various restaurants, medical centers. Maybe I should have just sold drugs. On one hand, i tried to take as wide range of a range of courses as i could, regardless of whether they’d count toward my majors(at first physics, then psychology) or not, including political science, classical mythology, positive psychology, shooting and developing holograms, decision making and judgement, dance, quantum mechanics etc. This directly resulted in me delaying graduation for another year. 

On one hand, I was very interested in the conceptual aspect of physics, on the other hand, I didn’t want to go to calculus classes at all. I did do well in quantum without understanding the Newtonian system too well though. I wonder if there will be a point in time in the future quantum’s all the physics we need to know. 

The point is, I was on probation for a total of maybe 2 years out of the five years I was in Ohio. I'd be on probation every other term, because being on two consecutively would result in withdrawal because my grades were lingering  in the 1.0 semester borderline. It was mostly due to all the partying, and drinking, and more partying… and more drinking. I say party, but more like… confused kids with bottled hormones are drowning in alcohol because the more law wants you to not drink until 21, the more you want to drink before 21.  I lived in a house, I had no choice but to participate since there were four Japanese and two Chinese, the other Chinese was always over at her chinese american boyfriend’s fraternity house. 

My physics grades were shit still despite trying hard the last two years of college  that I had one class that I couldn’t pass which directly resulted in me giving up the major completely. I settled with a minor. My other major, psychology, was doing ok despite bare minimal effort, though I always paid attention in class, I still didn’t want to do homework, or prepare for tests. I’ve never been good at tests. Or homework. Or anything I don’t like doing in general.

ChatGPT 翻译：

太浩湖之后，是大学。我在经济上依然非常依赖父母，尽管我尝试去各种餐厅、医疗中心打工。也许我那时候就该去卖点药。

一方面，我试着尽可能广泛地选课，不管它们是否能算进我的主修（起初是物理，后来转成心理学），我都照样选。政治学、古典神话学、积极心理学、全息摄影与显影、决策与判断、舞蹈、量子力学等等。也正因为这样，我的毕业推迟了一年。

我确实对物理的概念层面非常感兴趣，但另一方面，我一点也不想去上微积分课。虽然我牛顿力学还没搞明白，就上了量子物理，但我量子那门课居然学得还不错。我有时候在想，会不会未来的某一刻，我们只需要懂量子物理就够了。

重点是，在我在俄亥俄的五年里，有差不多两年都处于留校察看（probation）状态。我几乎是隔一个学期就被警告一次——因为连续两个学期被警告就会被退学。而我每学期的 GPA 都在1.0的边缘徘徊。基本上是因为各种聚会、喝酒、再聚会、再喝酒。我说“聚会”，但其实更像是一群激素混乱的迷茫小孩往酒精里跳，因为法律越是禁止21岁前喝酒，你就越想在21岁之前喝个够。

我那时候住在一个房子里，几乎没法不参与——屋里四个日本人、两个中国人，另一个中国女生总在她那个美籍华人的男友兄弟会宿舍混。

物理课成绩最后还是一塌糊涂，尽管大学最后两年我已经尽力了，但有一门课死活过不了，最后我就彻底放弃了这个专业，只保留了一个辅修。

另一个主修是心理学，成绩还行，尽管我几乎没怎么努力。虽然我上课时很专心，但我依然不想写作业，也不想准备考试。我一直都不擅长考试，或者说，不擅长做任何我不感兴趣的事。