我留意你有一段时间了，好像不管我去哪、总能见到你，你总是在做我很好奇的事情、看我很感兴趣的书、用我好奇音质的耳机、家里一堆我想看的书、貌似很好沟通的父母，为什么这样的家庭环境不是我家、我总是想。

我嫉妒他、甚至因此讨厌他。我不理解，为什么他轻易有我想有的一切。每次看到他，我都有些怨恨、甚至愤怒，为什么，是因为他是男孩、我是女孩吗？为什么我什么都不被允许做、不允许被尝试，为什么他什么都可以。

ChatGPT translation:

I’ve been noticing you for a while. It feels like no matter where I go, I always run into you. You’re always doing something I’m curious about, reading books I’m interested in, using headphones with a sound I want to hear, and your house is full of books I want to read. Your parents seem easy to talk to. And I keep thinking—why couldn’t that have been my family?

I was jealous of him, to the point where I started to dislike him. I didn’t understand—why did he so easily have everything I wanted? Every time I saw him, I felt resentment, even anger. Why? Was it because he’s a boy and I’m a girl? Why was I not allowed to do anything, not even to try, while he was allowed to do everything?