What is Creativity?
I somehow stumbled upon a dance practice somewhere in the basement of Ohio Union. I was trying everything, so I gave that a try too. I got into this performance they are doing, for a small cultural event. They wanted to do this Kpop song. I was like, Kpop, I know, my friends in Tahoe used to tell me all about Miss A. No problem, I did all the research, got heels, and I danced on a stage with them, with people watching, and taking videos of me. I was a bit dumbfounded through the entire experience.
I’m a shy person. I am just as shy as I’ve always been, but I've now learned to embrace it, and be honest instead of uncomfortable. I didn’t know how to manage back then. I still wanted to try it. To my surprise, I liked it. Music, dance, language, tempo, color, sound, and emotions are the most primal human things anyone could enjoy. There doesn’t need to be a stage, it doesn’t have to be a performance, as long as we are together, relaxed, enjoying ourselves.
I did like the attention aspect of it as well. I learned that I’d otherwise want absolutely no attention, unless it has something to do with my creative expression, then I want all attention on me. Please listen to me, talk to me, let me know what you think, how does this make you feel, what do you see in it about me? How can we make this better? Will people like it? Can I do it this way, will it make you feel that way? Do you see what I’m saying? Do you see what I’m trying to do? Isn’t this so new and experimental?
ChatGPT 翻译：
我不知怎么的，在俄亥俄学生活动中心的地下室偶然撞见了一场舞蹈练习。我那时候什么都在尝试，所以我也试了这个。我加入了他们在一个小型文化活动上要表演的节目。他们想跳一首 Kpop 歌曲。我想说，Kpop，我懂啊，我在太浩湖的朋友以前一直给我讲 Miss A。没问题，我做了所有的功课，买了高跟鞋，然后我和他们一起在舞台上跳舞，有人看着我，还有人给我录像。我整个过程中都有点懵。
我是个害羞的人。我到现在还是和以前一样害羞，但现在我学会了接纳这种羞怯，用诚实去面对，而不是只觉得不舒服。那时候我还不知道怎么处理这些情绪。但我还是想试试看。让我惊讶的是，我喜欢它。音乐、舞蹈、语言、节奏、颜色、声音、情绪——是任何人都能享受的最原始的人类体验。这不需要舞台，也不一定要是表演，只要我们在一起，放松、享受，就足够了。
我确实也喜欢它带来的关注。我发现，除非是关于我的创作表达，否则我一点也不想被关注。但只要是我的表达，那我就希望所有的注意力都集中在我身上。请听我说，和我对话，告诉我你的感受，这让你感觉如何，你从中看到的“我”是什么？我们可以怎么让它更好？别人会喜欢吗？我能不能这样做，这样做会让你有那样的感受吗？你看见我想表达的东西了吗？你看出我在做什么了吗？是不是很新，很实验？