我想跟他说，你回去吧，你在这里现在给我带来的麻烦大过益处了。他似乎感觉到了什么、一整周的小心翼翼、生怕犯错的样子也让我心疼。但我没有过度反应吧、我是真的崩溃了，他们从小对我造成的神经递质的失调、就是会给我这样的无法控制的情绪出现。情绪来的时候，会完全淹没我的全部感官、半死不死、类似waterboarding. 

但即便这样，我也不知道怎么委婉的告诉他，最后只好假装他影响了新婚夫妇的性生活（笑）：一个作为父亲都不想听到、更别说拒绝的借口了（事实上，没有影响到）。

ChatGPT translation:

I wanted to tell him, go back. At this point, the trouble you’re bringing me outweighs the benefits. He seemed to sense something—he spent the whole week walking on eggshells, afraid of doing something wrong. That made me feel sorry for him.

But I wasn’t overreacting, was I? I really did break down. The neurochemical imbalances they caused in me since I was little—that’s what leads to these uncontrollable emotional episodes. When the emotion hits, it floods all my senses. It’s half-dead, half-alive. It’s like waterboarding.

And even with all that, I still didn’t know how to tell him gently. In the end, I had no choice but to pretend he was affecting the sex life of the newlyweds (lol)—an excuse no father would want to hear, let alone argue with. (In reality, it hadn’t affected anything.)